Finding Inspiration...
As I mentioned in my About section, I don't really know what I'm doing. I have never made a professional cookbook before. I have never not worked a corporate job before. Making the decision to take the rest of the year off to work on a creative passion project was liberating, but also simultaneously terrifying! At first, I was excited and inspired. Then in the next moment, I felt discouraged and doubtful of myself. It is difficult to make that first step. Actually, I take that back. It's fucking scary to take that first step. But it's even harder to take those second, third, and forth steps! The drive that forces you to make that initial decision is an adrenaline rush. But then it wears off. Somehow, you have to find the courage to push through your moment of self-doubt to keep moving and taking action. And it has not been easy. It has been a journey. It has been a learning process. I've had lots of pep talks with myself. My friends have had pep talks with me. Who knew I needed so much support?! And that's okay! At least that is what I'm learning. It's okay to ask for support. I have often felt discouraged each time I encountered an obstacle. But I have had to remind myself not to get overwhelmed with the bigger picture and to focus on that next step that I need to make in order to keep myself moving forward. This week, I felt recharged after taking a break from my cookbook for one day to help my friend with her yoga photoshoot. We spent the first part of the day at El Matador Beach in Malibu taking beautiful shots in the sand, on the rocks, in the water. We took a nice little lunch break at Malibu Seafood along the PCH. I treated myself to a WHOLE lobster for lunch! We then spent golden hour at Pan Pacific Park near The Grove climbing trees and doing yoga poses down in the dirt. We ended the day sipping on wine on my balcony at sunset. It may have been just one day of ordinary activities, but it was the fuel and inspiration I needed this week to keep moving forward.